Waddup internet friendz? How’s life treating you?
I’m quite good, actually. About a week ago I came back from Denmark after two weeks of a well deserved holiday. I had a pretty amazing time, which I will tell you allllll about in my next post.
So, I may have told you that I’m starting uni in September, which is really exciting but also really scary. I’ll be studying International Business Communication. Eeep. I was kind of really done with high school since I spent six years there and I had kinda outgrown all the younger kids there and yeah. But at the same time I still feel like such a baby and not at all like a proper student.
Coming Sunday the orientation week for all freshmen starts, which involves lots of partying and meeting new people and socialising and all things extraverted. As I am way more of an introvert than an extravert, I first saw this as a huge challenge. I didn’t think I would make friends or even have a good time. I don’t really go out partying and drinking, simply because that is not something I enjoy. I’d much rather spend time inside (or outside for that matter) hanging with friends, just genuinely talking and laughing and having a good time instead of getting wasted.
I was worrying, laying awake at night because I was convinced I’d make a bad first impression on my classmates. I’m not like most teenagers after all.
I think this is something everyone can in one way or another relate to. We get overwhelmed by new, unknown things and immediately start doubting ourselves. This can be in any situation, whether that be a work-related situation or romance or friends-related situation or even something totally else. Questions instantly pop up in your head and won’t leave you alone. What if I mess up? What if I panic? What if me and the others can’t get along? What if I can’t do it?
Then I read the following quote:
Feel the fear and do it anyway.
This stuck with me and I realized that I won’t know if I’ll mess up or if I’ll get along with the others. I won’t know if I can do it or not, unless I actually go out and do it. So. That’s what I’m going to do. I’m going out, ready to do it all. I’m going to experience everything and I’m going to embrace every single new day with an open mindset. I’m going to meet loads of new people and make new friends and have a flippin’ good time.
I learned that if I want to overcome my fears, I have to do just that thing I am afraid of. I hope you’re trying something new as much as possible, even if it’s something small. Babysteps is fine, great actually.